Monday, February 07, 2005
5:48 pm
5:48 pm
It's been a while
Planes really suck. I haven't written anything in this thing in a long time. Well...I couldn't the past 3 days because I went to my Grandma's funeral. I didn't cry. I held it back, which I think is a bad thing...or not. I don't know. It was different. Then there was the party thing afterwards which was boring. I stayed in my sanctuary most of the time. Parties and I don't mix. Maybe it's because I'm not as social as I wish I am. But oh well. I'm not complaining. I like me just the way I am.
I haven't been myself lately. I've been very moody and hostile. Not caring about much. The pain is back in my chest though. I don't want to go to the doctors though. It's probably too much stress or something. Nothing to worry too much about though. It's not like I have cancer. I dunno...maybe I should get it checked out. No...I hate doctors. They try to kill me. Last time they did was when they did the spinal tapp on me. They actually had to give me drugs to calm me down and get me to stop yelling at them. They went with it, but I wasn't happy.
Something is different but I don't know what it is. Something is different...very different...
