Friday, March 18, 2005
10:51 pm
10:51 pm
It's been a while
Wow...time flies when you're having fun, eh? Meh...maybe. But nothing in this past month or so is worth mentioning. The only reason why I haven't posted is because I dropped my laptop and it became too dark to see. In other words, I broke it. I screw everything up. But...I don't care. What do I care about now a days? I have no fucking clue. I've been completely empty for months and I think it's starting to take me over. Like an inner demon or something. I'm also welcoming it. Because I have nothing there anymore. So why not fill it with something. I'm filling it with my own darkness and lonliness that seems to comsume everything good in me. I'm being consumed by myself. My own mind. My own darkness. Everything of mine. Oh well. I've been more hostile lately too. Everything has been pissing me off. Anything that moves pisses me off, anything that makes noise pisses me off. Is that abnormal? Maybe...who knows. Who really cares? What is the definition of "care"? Maybe it's just all in our minds. We just think we "care" about something...just a state of mind. That no one actually cares about anything at all. I don't know. I'm no psychologist. I don't want to be one.
One of my shields got broken yesterday. Which means I'm going to be a lot more paranoid about things. More jumpy. Till I rebuild it. Which I probably wont do. But, I better wrap this up. I don't have much time. What do we actually have time for?
