Monday, August 29, 2005
2:37 pm
2:37 pm
Holy hell...
Would you believe, after 9 months, me and Jessica are talking again. It freaked me out. At first, it was all too surreal, then I cried for a min, then one emotion just set in, shocked/confused. All my emotions were raging out at once, and I didn't know how to react. I still don't. Now the next feat is to call her without hanging up. Since the lack of sleep I've been getting lately, I'm starting to think I'm not awake and this is just a cruel lucid dream. Pinch me. I'm not exactly happy...but I'm not mad..or sad. I'm actually scared. Scared of my best friend for 3-4 years maybe even longer than that now..but it's sad. Maybe it's a natural reaction. I don't know. Atleast I know she isn't dead. Funny thing is, I just got used to her not being around, used to not talking to her. Oh well. Then last night, when I tried to sleep, I got excited. Like hyperly excited. Then I couldn't sleep. So at 7, I ended up calling Cory who didn't answer, and I lied in bed trying to sleep. I finally went to sleep around 7:45 or something. Slept till 2, because my mom woke me up. Oh well. All that is the only news I have in my life right now. Amazing huh? This post isn't as long as the others have been lately. Oh well. No one really cares. I don't anyway. I feel a little better now. My stomach doesn't hurt as much, but it still does. From anxiety. I'm hungry, and I'm gonna try to eat something without throwing it up. Ta-Ta
